I have a tattoo on my foot. Now let me start off by saying that I don’t understand the big taboo about tattoos. They can be inspiring and a great way to express things. The tattoo on my foot says “Invincible” and you can laugh and say “oh yea you think your invincible?” and I do, but I don’t mean it in a superman-stop-a-speeding-bullet kind of invincible, I’m not an idiot, mine is more about an inner invincibility.
Everyone knows middle school and high school can be awful especially for girls and it was. I had a lot of drama with friends and boys and my body like every female but some of those things really upset me and shook me up but when I finally got good friends who genuinely cared and met guys that weren’t complete assholes I realized that all of that other stuff only affected me so much because I let it. I mean I told my “friend” all the stuff that she spread and I let the guy fool me into thinking he was decent and cared and I’m the one who made myself so insecure so of course I thought it was my fault and became really guarded. No one knew anything about me. But when I found friends who kept my secrets and actually gave a crap about me and I was happy around, I realized that all that other stuff with all the other people wasn’t my fault it was theirs.
When I realized this I slowly started to open up more and I decided that I wasn’t going to let anyone or anything bother me or break me. I became invincible in my own way. Now with all that said let’s be honest, I’m a teenage girl so I’m always gonna have guys in my life that turn out to be jerks and friends that no matter how many times they screw me over I keep forgiving them and letting them back in my life and I’m probably always gonna be a little insecure about the way I look but the difference between me then and me now is that whenever something happens that makes me upset or I don’t get the guy or I don’t have the body I wish I had, I just look down at my tattoo and realize that they can only effect me as much as I let them. I get to choose. I remember no matter what anyone says, I am as mentally and emotionally “invincible” as I choose to be and I choose to be very invincible. I’m determined to not let stupid things effect me now like they did then and that is truly a great feeling.
